How could I have known that every time I took you back, accepted your shit, that I would devalue myself?
I never wanted to lose
I thought I was winning…
I had you.
So.
I.
Thought.
I ask that you RESPECT ME.
Who knew I gave that away over 15 years ago?
How did I not know that?
How can you value me when I lowered the bar?
Was there a bar?
Or was that a moving target?
For once I chose to lose
Lose you.
Lose me.
Lose us.
My devalued ass couldn’t put up a fight anymore
I had no value
So I valued myself…